Crazy Way To End A Week...

I am finishing my internship this week. However, the whole week has been rather crazy. It is going to be the same for the next few days.

Unlike my other peers, I have a lot of work to clear before the internship ends. Firstly, the deadline for the whole report is next week. My mentor is looking through what I've written so far. One last section and conclusion remain to be completed. I intend to finish up as much as I could for my team before the deadline.

Besides meeting the deadline of the report, I have to let my boss see my draft (whatever I have written together with my mentor). He needs to write my appraisal for the internship according to the performance of work. What makes things worst is that my boss is on leave this Friday and he will be away in Mumbai on a business trip next week. That means I have to edit the draft of my paper earliest by tomorrow or latest next week after getting feedbacks from my mentor. However, next week I will be starting my workshops. That is going to leave me little time to complete.

In addition, I still have to organize my thoughts to write my journal. This last assignment of the internship is to be handed to the HR, and will be graded. The grades will be part of the evaluation scores that determine our final posting.

P.S. Demand and supply mechanism + "the fittest survive" = work life

Stardust

A friend and I went to JP for Stardust, the fantasy movie yesterday. Returning to JP for the movie, all my memories of secondary school times came back to me. The shopping mall was still as crowded. The cinema looked packed with young people too.

The movie itself was great, with a simple storyline and some romantic elements added to it. The effects, scenary and cast were also not too bad.

P.S. Of course, what matters at the end of the day is the company one has.

Better Mood

I am in a better mood this week, especially after the weekend. Probably my mentor is not around. That's is why I feel less pressurised. My average knock off time is capped at before 7pm this week. I just prayed hard that when my mentor is back, I can show her a good piece of work, which reached her expectations.

I met up with a few university friends on Thursday night after work to celebrate one of their birthdays. We went to a Shanghainese restaurant that serves great dumplings. After dinner, we shopped around Bugis Junction and eventually ended off the day with ice-creams at Swensens. However, I still headed off to Clarke Quay to meet my colleagues, who were chilling out at MacDonald. We only left at around 2plus in the morning. I probably reached home close to 3am, and slept till 10 plus in the morning.

Today I joined my colleagues at Tampines Sports Complex for badminton session. I must admit I was there for the company, not so much for the sake of the sports (because I haven't played for a long time). After two hours of games, we had our dinner at Ajisen (Tampines Mall). I guess that was enough for a day and so chose to go home.

P.S. It is the company that matters at the end of the day.

Mood

I've been having foul mood these days. I think that's because I feel that I've not done up to expectations at work, and that pissed me off in a way. I always want to do the best at work. I like the feeling of recognition. However, I just feel that I fall short of all the expectations that people has on me.

I sounded a little harsh to my colleagues on Friday. I think a few of them are shocked at my huge reactions to the correspondences. Seriously, I think I was in the wrong.

Taking a break over weekend, I did some thinking on my report. I'm in a better mood now. I feel more motivated to prove my mentor wrong. I want to exceed their expectations of me. You can call it ambitious, but I am really keen to put my soul and heart on perfecting my work. I want to change the bad impression I have given them previously and do a detailed job. I've been through worst jobs. I am sure I just need to be given the chance to prove myself this time round to earn the recognition.

At least my mentor won't be around the whole of this week. I can put less pressure on myself and concentrate on my work. In addition, I plan to join my colleagues over dinner, i.e. leave office around 5 plus (a rare situation these days for me).

P.S. I need a listening ear that I can trust to release all the frustrations in me.