Mood

I've been having foul mood these days. I think that's because I feel that I've not done up to expectations at work, and that pissed me off in a way. I always want to do the best at work. I like the feeling of recognition. However, I just feel that I fall short of all the expectations that people has on me.

I sounded a little harsh to my colleagues on Friday. I think a few of them are shocked at my huge reactions to the correspondences. Seriously, I think I was in the wrong.

Taking a break over weekend, I did some thinking on my report. I'm in a better mood now. I feel more motivated to prove my mentor wrong. I want to exceed their expectations of me. You can call it ambitious, but I am really keen to put my soul and heart on perfecting my work. I want to change the bad impression I have given them previously and do a detailed job. I've been through worst jobs. I am sure I just need to be given the chance to prove myself this time round to earn the recognition.

At least my mentor won't be around the whole of this week. I can put less pressure on myself and concentrate on my work. In addition, I plan to join my colleagues over dinner, i.e. leave office around 5 plus (a rare situation these days for me).

P.S. I need a listening ear that I can trust to release all the frustrations in me.