We met at IMF. He gave me the impression of a very nice boy. When I talked to him, I realised he is very mature. Perhaps that makes him a little different from his peers of his same age. Then he was only 19. I still remembered we were discussing about university, and he mentioned that he wanted to get into an university after graduating from poly.
After two years, he indeed was offered a place in SMU to study business management (exactly the same course as me). Probably he has taken into considerations of what I've told him.
He nearly could be my junior if god didn't take him away...
On that very day, he bought his new motorcycle. That was two weeks after he obtained his bike license. It was also the day he met a fatal accident, and left this world. He could have such a bright future. He really has achieved his dreams to get into university and he did it. However, god decided to take him away at the same time.
It may be a brief encounter between him and me but I will remember this friend I made forever.
My friend, you will be remembered. I will remembered how motivated you were. I really want to perserve like you would if you will still here. 一路好走，朋友!!!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
男孩女孩
I came across this as I browsed through my blog entries:
每个男孩都曾是地狱的恶魔，当遇到自己喜欢的女孩时，便会动心，于是变为凡人。 所以女孩一定不要辜负男孩，不然男孩又要回到地狱。
每个女孩都曾是无泪的天使，当遇到自己喜欢的男孩时，便会流泪，于是变成凡人。所以男孩一定不要辜负女孩，因为女孩为你放弃了整个天堂!
每个男孩都曾是地狱的恶魔，当遇到自己喜欢的女孩时，便会动心，于是变为凡人。 所以女孩一定不要辜负男孩，不然男孩又要回到地狱。
每个女孩都曾是无泪的天使，当遇到自己喜欢的男孩时，便会流泪，于是变成凡人。所以男孩一定不要辜负女孩，因为女孩为你放弃了整个天堂!
It's Really Luck!!!
I wish I had voiced out my preferences when I was given a chance then. I gave it up and now I am in such deep s***.
That day I left my handphone on the desk, and left office to go for my Japanese class. On my way, I then realised I forgot my handphone. I called back using the phone of my colleague. My boss picked up. I told her that I think I left my phone in office. Guess what she said?!?! She questioned me in an impatient tone, "So what do you want me to do?"
I am sure if the same thing happen to you, you won't expect me to say that in your face. I don't see what's the big deal for you to get so frustrated.
The next day you can even treat it as nothing has happened. You didn't even bother telling me that my other colleague has safekept for me.
That same day that I got back to office. I was even more angry that you can make everything seems my fault AGAIN. Not once, not twice, but it's the million times you did that again.
You did a deal in the morning without telling me. You expect me to decipher that "please help me print another copy and i'm going to bring it to the customer" as "i'm going to get the documents today, as we've done the deal today". I am not as SMART as you to know that the two sentences are synonymous. And you could have obtained the papers earlier so that you can do the deal anytime.
Now you make it that nobody likes to talk to you. I have to be the bad guy and I've to stand your scolding because I've no idea what you've done. The more I don't understand why you need to make 3 calls and still come back office to scold me AGAIN. You only know how to put the blame on others. No wonder nobody likes to talk to you.
I have to act happy during the evening while we having our team dinner. You would never have know how upset you've made me. But because of you, I got the motivation to finish editing my resume over the weekend. No matter how bad the market is, I know I won't be able to tolerate you for any longer.
I can never be as "ATAS" as you. I can't buy LV and still complain that Kate Spade can't never compare to the LV bags. I can't drink Starbucks everyday like you do. At least I know my money is well-spent on trips, that I can enhance my knowledge in the long run. How would buying an LV or Kate Spade makes you any smarter?!?!
P.S. Sorry to those who are LV or Kate Spade fans but I really don't see how it makes you look smarter.
That day I left my handphone on the desk, and left office to go for my Japanese class. On my way, I then realised I forgot my handphone. I called back using the phone of my colleague. My boss picked up. I told her that I think I left my phone in office. Guess what she said?!?! She questioned me in an impatient tone, "So what do you want me to do?"
I am sure if the same thing happen to you, you won't expect me to say that in your face. I don't see what's the big deal for you to get so frustrated.
The next day you can even treat it as nothing has happened. You didn't even bother telling me that my other colleague has safekept for me.
That same day that I got back to office. I was even more angry that you can make everything seems my fault AGAIN. Not once, not twice, but it's the million times you did that again.
You did a deal in the morning without telling me. You expect me to decipher that "please help me print another copy and i'm going to bring it to the customer" as "i'm going to get the documents today, as we've done the deal today". I am not as SMART as you to know that the two sentences are synonymous. And you could have obtained the papers earlier so that you can do the deal anytime.
Now you make it that nobody likes to talk to you. I have to be the bad guy and I've to stand your scolding because I've no idea what you've done. The more I don't understand why you need to make 3 calls and still come back office to scold me AGAIN. You only know how to put the blame on others. No wonder nobody likes to talk to you.
I have to act happy during the evening while we having our team dinner. You would never have know how upset you've made me. But because of you, I got the motivation to finish editing my resume over the weekend. No matter how bad the market is, I know I won't be able to tolerate you for any longer.
I can never be as "ATAS" as you. I can't buy LV and still complain that Kate Spade can't never compare to the LV bags. I can't drink Starbucks everyday like you do. At least I know my money is well-spent on trips, that I can enhance my knowledge in the long run. How would buying an LV or Kate Spade makes you any smarter?!?!
P.S. Sorry to those who are LV or Kate Spade fans but I really don't see how it makes you look smarter.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Truth of Life
Golden advice from a buddy:
"Life is like a stage play, stage play is like life, just that sometimes in life, there isn't 'Take 2'."
"Life is like a stage play, stage play is like life, just that sometimes in life, there isn't 'Take 2'."
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Harsh Environment
Perhaps my last blog entries may sound scary - 'friend is foe & foe is friend".
Once you acknowledged a group of people into your "circle", you are considered "ONE OF THEM". Be it good or bad. You seem to be labeled just because of the group you are in. Is that BRANDING? Does an opinion of a person be seen as the opinion of another?
Someone once told me that isn't it good to find your own "clique". Perhaps one or two people, or a group of them who share common beliefs and thinking.
Well, I guess it depends on how you think it. To some, they see it as a good thing; to others, they might look it in a bad way. To many people, they simply love to classify things, and people. They like to generalise everything they see, touch, smell, taste and hear. GENERALISATION.
Once you acknowledged a group of people into your "circle", you are considered "ONE OF THEM". Be it good or bad. You seem to be labeled just because of the group you are in. Is that BRANDING? Does an opinion of a person be seen as the opinion of another?
Someone once told me that isn't it good to find your own "clique". Perhaps one or two people, or a group of them who share common beliefs and thinking.
Well, I guess it depends on how you think it. To some, they see it as a good thing; to others, they might look it in a bad way. To many people, they simply love to classify things, and people. They like to generalise everything they see, touch, smell, taste and hear. GENERALISATION.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Trouble Times
The market has been so volatile these days. Everything is the same kind of news regarding the market. The fall of Lehman Brothers. The merger & acquisitions going around in the U.S. The bailouts coming from the Central Banks in Europe & U.S. It's a domino effect. When would this be the end?
No matter how much actions going around me, work is still pretty much the same for me. Sometimes I feel that I am getting so used to all the nonsense at work. At times I am really pissed off by the comments and actions of people.
Perhaps I am not an easy-going person to get along afterall. I don't like the feeling of not knowing who are your foe and friend a work. Life is indeed better when you're a student. No politics. You don't have to learn how to grow up at the harsher environment. Now things haven't changed much, but inside me I think I've adapted to accept that the world around me now is like this. A place where your enemy is your closest friend. Make your friends close, but make your enemies closer. That's just the way life is.
No matter how much actions going around me, work is still pretty much the same for me. Sometimes I feel that I am getting so used to all the nonsense at work. At times I am really pissed off by the comments and actions of people.
Perhaps I am not an easy-going person to get along afterall. I don't like the feeling of not knowing who are your foe and friend a work. Life is indeed better when you're a student. No politics. You don't have to learn how to grow up at the harsher environment. Now things haven't changed much, but inside me I think I've adapted to accept that the world around me now is like this. A place where your enemy is your closest friend. Make your friends close, but make your enemies closer. That's just the way life is.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Almost 2 months...
It's almost 2 months since I last updated this blog. I guess those friends of mine who used to frequent this blog would have forgotten that this blog still exists.
Many things have happened over the 2 months. My eventful trip to NYC & Toronto. A job interview that offered an opportunity that I had hope for 5 years ago. Perhaps if it's not yours, it's not yours. I must learn to face reality. I must appreciate what my capabilities are and are not.
I certainly wish to get out from where I am now in less than a year's time. I really can't stand Ms. J. She's pissing me off at times. She never listens. And because she doesn't listen, she claims that you didn't tell her beforrehand. She put blames on you intentionally, making you feel bad. Perhaps I don't have her "common sense" but I think she ought to give people some respect. Not only does she not praise you when you do well, she makes sure you remember her scolding. I really don't think I can tolerate her for too long. That's the main reason why I am planning to leave.
Of course, the other reason is I don't know if where I am now is where I belong. i don't feel a sense of belongings here. Perhaps I don't think I have the capabilities required in this role.
Well, time for a chance soon!!! Counting down to Dec first if I survive all these crap!!!
Many things have happened over the 2 months. My eventful trip to NYC & Toronto. A job interview that offered an opportunity that I had hope for 5 years ago. Perhaps if it's not yours, it's not yours. I must learn to face reality. I must appreciate what my capabilities are and are not.
I certainly wish to get out from where I am now in less than a year's time. I really can't stand Ms. J. She's pissing me off at times. She never listens. And because she doesn't listen, she claims that you didn't tell her beforrehand. She put blames on you intentionally, making you feel bad. Perhaps I don't have her "common sense" but I think she ought to give people some respect. Not only does she not praise you when you do well, she makes sure you remember her scolding. I really don't think I can tolerate her for too long. That's the main reason why I am planning to leave.
Of course, the other reason is I don't know if where I am now is where I belong. i don't feel a sense of belongings here. Perhaps I don't think I have the capabilities required in this role.
Well, time for a chance soon!!! Counting down to Dec first if I survive all these crap!!!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Trip To NYC & Toronto
I really can't wait to head to NYC and Toronto!!!
It's been such crazy weeks. I am rushing to finish up reports to the "internal customers" so as to provide the facilities for my "external customers". I have no idea how I am supposed to finish in time.
Now I really wish August would come soon. I need a break to rest my minds and enjoy myself. My last overseas trip was in late Jan (if you discount the frequent trips to JB in Jun). I think it's time for me to recharge my whole body...
It's been such crazy weeks. I am rushing to finish up reports to the "internal customers" so as to provide the facilities for my "external customers". I have no idea how I am supposed to finish in time.
Now I really wish August would come soon. I need a break to rest my minds and enjoy myself. My last overseas trip was in late Jan (if you discount the frequent trips to JB in Jun). I think it's time for me to recharge my whole body...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
The Unknown Ahead
I have been so shagged these days after work that I rarely come online. I normally go straight to bed after only some TV shows. I also never head out after work these days. Honestly, I have no idea why I am so tired.
Recently, I also been thinking whether I've chosen the right career path. Studying part-time is ok. However, I am certainly not those very academic kind to do research at university. Nor am I super ambitious. I am not a born leader. Yet, at times we have to choose what's best for us and what we are good at. I am once again at a crossroads if I am suitable for my current role. Or should I go into a position that allows me the chance to travel or some jobs that do not require to reach sales quota?
There was an opportunity of job transfer to the research department. I couldn't leave my job as of now. I am not sure if I have made the right decision. I probably won't know till few years from now...
Recently, I also been thinking whether I've chosen the right career path. Studying part-time is ok. However, I am certainly not those very academic kind to do research at university. Nor am I super ambitious. I am not a born leader. Yet, at times we have to choose what's best for us and what we are good at. I am once again at a crossroads if I am suitable for my current role. Or should I go into a position that allows me the chance to travel or some jobs that do not require to reach sales quota?
There was an opportunity of job transfer to the research department. I couldn't leave my job as of now. I am not sure if I have made the right decision. I probably won't know till few years from now...
Friday, June 27, 2008
24nd Birthday
Thank you all for the cake, flowers, and gifts! Thank you for meeting me to celebrate my birthday too! I am really thankful that you for remembering my birthday and making my 24nd birthday realise that I am very fortunate to have friends around me. There are a few friends whose sincerity touches my heart. I wish I could remember their birthday as clearly as they could remember me. However, I am really forgetful when it comes to numbers. Sorry! And sorry for the late thank you!
Monday, June 9, 2008
Birthday
A colleague reminded me of my birthday. I don't know that colleague that well, but one of the GTs told her. She's also born in Jun.
Honestly, I am not at all excited about my birthday. No plans for now. No plans for Friday night out.
The GTs are having a gathering on Friday. But I am not keen on joining. Blame it on my anti-socialness. I just want to have a night without memories of work. The only thing I can talk about with my colleagues is now only WORK, and MORE WORK. I can't find myself relating to many of them. I guess I was never the extrovert afterall.
I simply love being around friends. GEMINI. The horoscope that explains all.
Unfortunately, my good girlfriend is working London hours. That means I can't get her to join me. I don't mind going back home to watch my Jap drama. That is if the latest episodes have been uploaded.
P.S. I signed up for classes at Las Lilas, the Spanish school. Time to move away from Japanese!!!
Honestly, I am not at all excited about my birthday. No plans for now. No plans for Friday night out.
The GTs are having a gathering on Friday. But I am not keen on joining. Blame it on my anti-socialness. I just want to have a night without memories of work. The only thing I can talk about with my colleagues is now only WORK, and MORE WORK. I can't find myself relating to many of them. I guess I was never the extrovert afterall.
I simply love being around friends. GEMINI. The horoscope that explains all.
Unfortunately, my good girlfriend is working London hours. That means I can't get her to join me. I don't mind going back home to watch my Jap drama. That is if the latest episodes have been uploaded.
P.S. I signed up for classes at Las Lilas, the Spanish school. Time to move away from Japanese!!!
Friday, May 30, 2008
Birthday Card
I received my first birthday card today. I didn't expect it to come with the $30 Takashimaya voucher. I would have thought there was only the voucher. My department head was the one distributing the card. A pleasant surprise on Friday. However, at the same time, I felt so old.
Approaching the mid-20s, I wouldn't say that I have achieved a lot in life. I have yet to travel around half the world. Nor have I become half a millionaire. However, I am proud of myself that I had the chance to travel widely to countries like Argentina, Chile and South Africa. This kind of lifestyle is what many peers of my age would not have imagined. Attaining the status of being financially independent even before the age of 20 is considered another achievement for me.
Of course, I have a lot of plans in mind for the next 20 plus year...in terms of work and social.
P.S. Unfortunately, I would still be slogging myself on my birthday, as a new lady is joining my team on Monday and my boss will be on leave on the day of my birthday.
Approaching the mid-20s, I wouldn't say that I have achieved a lot in life. I have yet to travel around half the world. Nor have I become half a millionaire. However, I am proud of myself that I had the chance to travel widely to countries like Argentina, Chile and South Africa. This kind of lifestyle is what many peers of my age would not have imagined. Attaining the status of being financially independent even before the age of 20 is considered another achievement for me.
Of course, I have a lot of plans in mind for the next 20 plus year...in terms of work and social.
P.S. Unfortunately, I would still be slogging myself on my birthday, as a new lady is joining my team on Monday and my boss will be on leave on the day of my birthday.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday Night
I met up Ms. S, who is working a few blocks away from mine after work at Secret Recipe. We had a big plan to be carried out on that evening. In order to make the plan a perfect one, first we need a cake (a good enough size to show our sincerity). Then we walked all the way to ORQ. Next, we need to seek an accomplice. He/she has to know our target and be able to lure her to the destinated area for the plan. Luckily, that accomplice happened to sms me on that day about my "hot date" for that evening (I shall go into the content of the sms later). Perfect! Not only can he act as my accomplice to lure my target out for the day, but he could also inform me the best place to carry out the plan. Well, that's how Ms. S and I ended up on the 22nd floor, waiting for our target. And "Tada!". We appeared in front of our target - Ms. J and brought her a cake. It's a pity she has to work on that day. However, I hope she likes the little surprise we had for her. I am sure she must be a little shocked that I appeared at her office after work to deliver a cake, since I was still chatting with her over sms that I had a dinner apppointment.
After "mission accomplished", I had to head to Forum to meet a "friend" working for a particular embassy in Singapore. I would classify him as a "friend" because we only met 4 times (excluding one time that I saw him from far but couldn't recall his name in time). I met this "friend' 3 years ago at his workplace (the embassy) for an interview. Back then, he has only just arrived in Singapore from the UK. It was only few months back, I bumped into him again at a gathering. That was when I realised he knows my colleagues (who are my mentors during my internship). He came for another gathering I organised recently, and we ended up chatting about FTAs (that's Free Trade Agreements if you have no idea what's the abbreviation about). He mentioned he will update me again on the status this week, so we met up at a coffee outlet yesterday. We ended up chatting about dual citizenship and religions. He certainly studies a lot into cultures. Very enriching indeed.
An interesting Wednesday night I had.
P.S. I was supposed to reveal a little about the content of the sms. Apparently, my "accomplice" thought I was going on a "hot date" with a guy from the embassy. He smsed me regarding the "hot date". Of course, I must say I probably disappoint him. As I mentioned to my "accomplice", I was only meeting that "friend" to discuss world issues (technically, FTAs, dual citizenship and religions). The sms my friend sent me next was even more funny - "u can turn world issues to family issues". Honestly, this is really hilarious. At least something I can laugh at when I looked at that sms.
After "mission accomplished", I had to head to Forum to meet a "friend" working for a particular embassy in Singapore. I would classify him as a "friend" because we only met 4 times (excluding one time that I saw him from far but couldn't recall his name in time). I met this "friend' 3 years ago at his workplace (the embassy) for an interview. Back then, he has only just arrived in Singapore from the UK. It was only few months back, I bumped into him again at a gathering. That was when I realised he knows my colleagues (who are my mentors during my internship). He came for another gathering I organised recently, and we ended up chatting about FTAs (that's Free Trade Agreements if you have no idea what's the abbreviation about). He mentioned he will update me again on the status this week, so we met up at a coffee outlet yesterday. We ended up chatting about dual citizenship and religions. He certainly studies a lot into cultures. Very enriching indeed.
An interesting Wednesday night I had.
P.S. I was supposed to reveal a little about the content of the sms. Apparently, my "accomplice" thought I was going on a "hot date" with a guy from the embassy. He smsed me regarding the "hot date". Of course, I must say I probably disappoint him. As I mentioned to my "accomplice", I was only meeting that "friend" to discuss world issues (technically, FTAs, dual citizenship and religions). The sms my friend sent me next was even more funny - "u can turn world issues to family issues". Honestly, this is really hilarious. At least something I can laugh at when I looked at that sms.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Crazy Weekend
I organised a Spanishinsg gathering at Singapore Flyer on Saturday. Eight people turned up for the event. That's considered not bad for a gathering. I spent a fulfiling 30 minutes with the group. We then headed to Killiney for drinks. Eventually, we decided to split up as some girls want to shop and relax, while the guys were considering a movie together. I joined the guys to check out the timing for the movies. In the end, we ended up drinking at Ice Cold Beer @ SMU. I drank two bottles of Corona, and felt a bit tipsy. I guess it was because I didn't really have my lunch and have drunk with an empty stomach. After the drinks, we went to Raffles City for dinner before joining the girls at Boat Quay for the water show (an arts fest opening ceremony's performance). However, the place was so crowded with people, O and I went to Double O for a drink as there is free admission as part of its anniversary celebrations. I had my third drink of the day. Eventually, O and I decided to join the girls again at an expat's party @ Kallang. I took the last train back home on Sunday.
I spent the rest of Sunday resting at home. I only head out for a haircut at Bukit Timah in the morning. It was a peaceful Sunday, except for the disturbed calls and sms from a "friend". I shall not reveal the content. But I would say I wasn't too sure if he was going to be a "friend" to me anymore. I knew at that point in time I could no longer make him one. I didn't even bother replying. What makes me even more angry with him was the fact that he woke me up in the middle of the night. I was so tired today due to the insufficient of quality sleep till I forgot to update my report for tomorrow's early morning meeting. I would probably have to head to office at 7am tomorrow to finish it before showing my bosses.
I spent the rest of Sunday resting at home. I only head out for a haircut at Bukit Timah in the morning. It was a peaceful Sunday, except for the disturbed calls and sms from a "friend". I shall not reveal the content. But I would say I wasn't too sure if he was going to be a "friend" to me anymore. I knew at that point in time I could no longer make him one. I didn't even bother replying. What makes me even more angry with him was the fact that he woke me up in the middle of the night. I was so tired today due to the insufficient of quality sleep till I forgot to update my report for tomorrow's early morning meeting. I would probably have to head to office at 7am tomorrow to finish it before showing my bosses.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Spanish Interests
Another episode of the infotainment program hosted by Belinda features a guy who was offered a job in Switzerland to work for Schwab Foundation. The foundation focused on matching social entrepreneurs to resources all over the world. The job is not only interesting, but also a noble mission to assist the less fortunates. The amazing thing is that the guy's wife also gave up her job to follow her husband to Switzerland for two years. Now the guy is starting another company called Volans Ventures together with some former colleagues from the Schwab Foundation. His new role will even be more challenging with a lot of traveling involved in Asia.
The program is really motivating. I really wish I could be offered a job that is as interesting and fulfiling as the guy. It would be amazing to help out the less fortunates in South America. Not only could I practise my Spanish, I could also gain a chance to really make use of what I learnt during the South America Business Forum I attended two years ago.
My current job is challenging, and I must admit I am pretty reluctant to change anything to the current status. Perhaps you called that complacent. However, I've been thinking whether what I am doing now is what I am good at. At the same time, I believe there's no place for me in media if I even decide to go back. Not in terms of technical knowledge. Rather I meant doing media is what I like but not necessary what I am good at.
Should I continue to get complacent? Or should I seek to pursue my interests? It's such a dilemma.
The program is really motivating. I really wish I could be offered a job that is as interesting and fulfiling as the guy. It would be amazing to help out the less fortunates in South America. Not only could I practise my Spanish, I could also gain a chance to really make use of what I learnt during the South America Business Forum I attended two years ago.
My current job is challenging, and I must admit I am pretty reluctant to change anything to the current status. Perhaps you called that complacent. However, I've been thinking whether what I am doing now is what I am good at. At the same time, I believe there's no place for me in media if I even decide to go back. Not in terms of technical knowledge. Rather I meant doing media is what I like but not necessary what I am good at.
Should I continue to get complacent? Or should I seek to pursue my interests? It's such a dilemma.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Sakura International Buffet
I went Sakura at Orchard for international buffet with my mum and a group of aunties. It might seem like a surprise why would I go with a group of aunties. In fact, I know some of them. Most of them are my neighbours. One of the aunties has even watched me grow up. Amazing, isn't it?
The food was not bad. There was quite a variety of food, including scallops, sashimi, sushi, prawns, oyster, shark's fin soup, cream of mushroom, dim sum, tempura, ice-cream and sorbets, satay, grilled meat etc. My favourite is of course the sashimi - the fresh salmon, maguro and prawn. In addition, there was a selection of drinks like mocha, milo, ice tea, lemonade, coffee and tea, etc.
Perhaps it was a Saturday (also the eve of Mother's Day). There were a huge crowd of people. The place seems especially popular with young people. I would suggest this venue for gathering next time. It would be nice to have buffet with a group of friends. I am sure appetite improves when you have friends around.
The food was not bad. There was quite a variety of food, including scallops, sashimi, sushi, prawns, oyster, shark's fin soup, cream of mushroom, dim sum, tempura, ice-cream and sorbets, satay, grilled meat etc. My favourite is of course the sashimi - the fresh salmon, maguro and prawn. In addition, there was a selection of drinks like mocha, milo, ice tea, lemonade, coffee and tea, etc.
Perhaps it was a Saturday (also the eve of Mother's Day). There were a huge crowd of people. The place seems especially popular with young people. I would suggest this venue for gathering next time. It would be nice to have buffet with a group of friends. I am sure appetite improves when you have friends around.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Mounting Pressure
I'm slowly adapting to the role of a marketing officer. My manager also gradually letting me meet my portfolio of customers and handle requests of those customers. I am also starting to feel the pressure mounting at work. More expectations come not only from my customer, but also from my manager.
Although I am certainly underpaid as compared to industry rate, I think my job is challenging by nature. The work itself involves a steep learning curve. I am practically learning on the job most of the time. Every customers has unique issues to handle, and only when they have requests, I will learn what are the procedures involved. As usual, double standards occured everywhere. I have to always check again and again. I must have pissed off many colleagues by asking too many questions everyday. Haha~ I guess it's all part of learning experiences.
I have my annual leave in August approved. However, I have yet purchased my air tickets. Nor have I booked my accomodation. Tentatively, I should be visiting New York and Toronto. Time to save money for my trip!!!
Although I am certainly underpaid as compared to industry rate, I think my job is challenging by nature. The work itself involves a steep learning curve. I am practically learning on the job most of the time. Every customers has unique issues to handle, and only when they have requests, I will learn what are the procedures involved. As usual, double standards occured everywhere. I have to always check again and again. I must have pissed off many colleagues by asking too many questions everyday. Haha~ I guess it's all part of learning experiences.
I have my annual leave in August approved. However, I have yet purchased my air tickets. Nor have I booked my accomodation. Tentatively, I should be visiting New York and Toronto. Time to save money for my trip!!!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Politics
I hate people who stirred up trouble at workplace for nothing. These people create unnecessary rumours about others. The worst is they try to instill their own perspectives into others' mindset.
There's this new girl at my workplace. I can feel her hostility towards me. I am not being sensitive this time. You can feel the thorns behind every words she said to you. I have no idea why she doesn't like me, but speaking behind my back is horrendous.
I was supposed to hand over my previous role as an admin support to the marketing officers. Apparently, she didn't understand those things I taught her. In the end, she started making claims to everyone she works with in my division that give them the impression I didn't do a good job.
Imagine a new girl in the department already making such assumptions and making unfounded claims!
I guess she was too used to more politically entrenched work environment (She was from my neighbour upstairs that is known to be quite a political hot zone). That's the only reason I can only think why she couldn't stop herself from being political at workplace.
I just need to watch my steps at work...
There's this new girl at my workplace. I can feel her hostility towards me. I am not being sensitive this time. You can feel the thorns behind every words she said to you. I have no idea why she doesn't like me, but speaking behind my back is horrendous.
I was supposed to hand over my previous role as an admin support to the marketing officers. Apparently, she didn't understand those things I taught her. In the end, she started making claims to everyone she works with in my division that give them the impression I didn't do a good job.
Imagine a new girl in the department already making such assumptions and making unfounded claims!
I guess she was too used to more politically entrenched work environment (She was from my neighbour upstairs that is known to be quite a political hot zone). That's the only reason I can only think why she couldn't stop herself from being political at workplace.
I just need to watch my steps at work...
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Time Flies...
Time really flies when you're fully packed with work. It's been almost half a month since I took over the customer portfolio. I am still trying to get used to the life as a marketing officer. At the same time, I must bear with all the "coaxing" I get on a daily basis. These "coaxing" can be the nagging of my customers, or of my boss. I am certainly taking everything at stride at the moment. All these are part and parcel as I continue to move along the learning curve.
My boss is very strict. I always try my best to reach her expectations. Although she always seem very serious and solemn, she is a very nice and experienced manager. She's a local but she can speak and understand fluent Japanese. I am really impressed by her efficiency too. I really think I learn a lot from her when I went on customer visits with her. In order to reach her level, I must really put in a lot of hard work.
I am not exactly sure if I can achieve my 2009 dream now. But I wish I could go on my leave in Aug.
P.S. I am planning to go on a slightly long trip to visit my friends on the other side of the world. It's definitely not Latin America this time.
My boss is very strict. I always try my best to reach her expectations. Although she always seem very serious and solemn, she is a very nice and experienced manager. She's a local but she can speak and understand fluent Japanese. I am really impressed by her efficiency too. I really think I learn a lot from her when I went on customer visits with her. In order to reach her level, I must really put in a lot of hard work.
I am not exactly sure if I can achieve my 2009 dream now. But I wish I could go on my leave in Aug.
P.S. I am planning to go on a slightly long trip to visit my friends on the other side of the world. It's definitely not Latin America this time.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Brand New Beginning
The whole of this week has been hectic. I am transfered to the team officially as a marketing officer. I am supposed to take over a portfolio of customers from a colleague in my team, whose last day was on Friday. That means there is only one week for that colleague to handover. I started visiting some of the customers. As I am still pretty new to the role, I have been staying late to get myself familiarise with those customers. At the same time, I still have a lot to learn as a marketing officer. Though those things I've learnt over the last few months during the graduate trainee and the two months as an administrative officer are still pretty useful.
P.S. It seems like a brand new beginning for me...
P.S. It seems like a brand new beginning for me...
Saturday, March 29, 2008
A Brand New Beginning...
It's been a long time since I blogged...
I've been packed with work these days. I probably worked beyond the norm 6.30pm in office. That's because there's a new lady, a friend of a colleague. She is taking over my current position after making a job switch from JP (our investment neighbour). Although I am not the mentor of this new colleague (her friend is), I am supposed to hand over the work to her. I have no idea how much she get absorb within a week. Ultimately, she will be given the responsibility of the whole team (which is likely my current team). However, my marketing officers also want me to teach her the adhoc stuff occasionally. Honestly, I don't feel comfortable with that because she needs to learn how to crawl before she can walk. Many things I also have to learn on the job. I think given the time constraints, she just need to learn the most important role first.
Luckily, I will be posted to another team to learn the rope for marketing officer as there will be a reshuffling of the whole division and some turnover of staff within the division. My team will comprise of a local but fluent Japanese speaking manager, and an efficient native Japanese officer with the potential to be groom to be the next manager. In addition, I will joined the team as an officer. At the same time, they will be recruiting another new officer to replace a local officer, who is leaving at the end of the month.
P.S. With new power comes new responsibility.
I've been packed with work these days. I probably worked beyond the norm 6.30pm in office. That's because there's a new lady, a friend of a colleague. She is taking over my current position after making a job switch from JP (our investment neighbour). Although I am not the mentor of this new colleague (her friend is), I am supposed to hand over the work to her. I have no idea how much she get absorb within a week. Ultimately, she will be given the responsibility of the whole team (which is likely my current team). However, my marketing officers also want me to teach her the adhoc stuff occasionally. Honestly, I don't feel comfortable with that because she needs to learn how to crawl before she can walk. Many things I also have to learn on the job. I think given the time constraints, she just need to learn the most important role first.
Luckily, I will be posted to another team to learn the rope for marketing officer as there will be a reshuffling of the whole division and some turnover of staff within the division. My team will comprise of a local but fluent Japanese speaking manager, and an efficient native Japanese officer with the potential to be groom to be the next manager. In addition, I will joined the team as an officer. At the same time, they will be recruiting another new officer to replace a local officer, who is leaving at the end of the month.
P.S. With new power comes new responsibility.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Finalmente
I've PASSED my M5 exam finally!
Yesterday I checked out Food Fest at Suntec Convention Hall after my exam. There aren't many stalls around, but I was surprised that Mr. Bean was giving out free soya ice-cream. I also noticed QQ rice setting up a stall for the first time in Food Fest. I should be going to the exhibition for food and beverages with my mum and her friend. Normally I will end up carrying stuff home for my mum. Of course, I get to eat and drink. Luckily, I can start eating solid food now (I've put on braces on the upper teeth last Friday.)
I've been kept busy lately, assisting my team with the administrative support. However, starting 1st April, I should be transferred to the respective teams to learn the rope as a marketing officer, which is supposingly my final position. Perhaps certain things will be quite similar to what I'm doing now. Though I have no idea whose team I will be assigned to. I have a feeling that my current department needs more people than my assigned department. I can only accept whatever that is offered to me. I will then have to try to acquire as much knowledge as possible. That's how I can accumulate whatever transferrable skills to my future endeavours.
Yesterday I checked out Food Fest at Suntec Convention Hall after my exam. There aren't many stalls around, but I was surprised that Mr. Bean was giving out free soya ice-cream. I also noticed QQ rice setting up a stall for the first time in Food Fest. I should be going to the exhibition for food and beverages with my mum and her friend. Normally I will end up carrying stuff home for my mum. Of course, I get to eat and drink. Luckily, I can start eating solid food now (I've put on braces on the upper teeth last Friday.)
I've been kept busy lately, assisting my team with the administrative support. However, starting 1st April, I should be transferred to the respective teams to learn the rope as a marketing officer, which is supposingly my final position. Perhaps certain things will be quite similar to what I'm doing now. Though I have no idea whose team I will be assigned to. I have a feeling that my current department needs more people than my assigned department. I can only accept whatever that is offered to me. I will then have to try to acquire as much knowledge as possible. That's how I can accumulate whatever transferrable skills to my future endeavours.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Going Left
I am totally shagged these days. This week is probably the hardest I've worked in my department. I have tons of work to finish everyday, including learning many things on the job. However, as a workaholic by nature, I enjoy having work to do than acting busy (attaining the highest level of looking busy when I am not). At the same time, I am really using up so much energy. I've been feeling super tired by the time I reached home.
I have to clear some s*** for my team. Apparently, the other department, which is in-charge of checking through the documents submitted bymy team, are returning these papers to me to re-do. This should not have happened if not for the double standards that have existed in my department. Re-doing them means I need to check through that all documents are submitted, and then ensuring that I've attached the necessary additions. In addition, I will have to re-circulate the additional items to get the 'hanko' before submitting to the department doing the checks. That is simply a waste of time. If the team has done it in the correct way in the first place, they would have save all the trouble.
Beside ensuring that all documents are submitted this time, I supposed to get all the necessary 'hanko' through circulation by right. However, I realised in order to save myself the trouble, occassionally I have to "go by the left way" to complete the papers. I skipped a few protocols in that sense. Of course, I can't do that for all the time. Yet, this is the only way to save not only my time, but the time of my team. Obviously, the aim is to finish up this s*** that they started off, and complete the rest of the work for the team within this month as much as I could. If I could help them attain 90% completion before my attachment ends, I could potentially gain some good reputation at work.
P.S. Life is not just about going right, but at times we need to know when to turn left too.
I have to clear some s*** for my team. Apparently, the other department, which is in-charge of checking through the documents submitted bymy team, are returning these papers to me to re-do. This should not have happened if not for the double standards that have existed in my department. Re-doing them means I need to check through that all documents are submitted, and then ensuring that I've attached the necessary additions. In addition, I will have to re-circulate the additional items to get the 'hanko' before submitting to the department doing the checks. That is simply a waste of time. If the team has done it in the correct way in the first place, they would have save all the trouble.
Beside ensuring that all documents are submitted this time, I supposed to get all the necessary 'hanko' through circulation by right. However, I realised in order to save myself the trouble, occassionally I have to "go by the left way" to complete the papers. I skipped a few protocols in that sense. Of course, I can't do that for all the time. Yet, this is the only way to save not only my time, but the time of my team. Obviously, the aim is to finish up this s*** that they started off, and complete the rest of the work for the team within this month as much as I could. If I could help them attain 90% completion before my attachment ends, I could potentially gain some good reputation at work.
P.S. Life is not just about going right, but at times we need to know when to turn left too.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Thrown Into The Sea To Learn How To Swim
I am transfered to the other department within the Japanese Corporate Banking Division. I am supposed to provide administrative support to one of the marketing teams in that department. This attachment would be for at least a month. Apparently, a lady left the team not too long ago, and the company has yet to find anyone to replace her. I am the next best substitute for them now. I don't think I have learnt everything I need to know for the last one month to apply to this position.
Now I truly feel like I'm being thrown into the deep sea, and forced to learn how to swim by myself. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. I could potentially learn a lot more than the first one month acting busy most of the time. Whatever I learnt now could also be useful to my future career as a marketing officer.
Yet, at the same time, I felt the disbelief when my mentor knew about my transfer and that the boss has assigned me a team to handle all by myself. I knew she didn't like me as much as she likes Mr. D (who was previously interning at my department). I tried not to ask her too many questions. Instead, I will ask around different people at workplace. Of course, I will try to figure out on my own first before asking around. I guess that would be the best option for me at this current stage.
I hope everything at work will eventually work out. I can gain the trust and respect from my bosses with the added responsibilities.
P.S. With great power comes great responsibilities.
Now I truly feel like I'm being thrown into the deep sea, and forced to learn how to swim by myself. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. I could potentially learn a lot more than the first one month acting busy most of the time. Whatever I learnt now could also be useful to my future career as a marketing officer.
Yet, at the same time, I felt the disbelief when my mentor knew about my transfer and that the boss has assigned me a team to handle all by myself. I knew she didn't like me as much as she likes Mr. D (who was previously interning at my department). I tried not to ask her too many questions. Instead, I will ask around different people at workplace. Of course, I will try to figure out on my own first before asking around. I guess that would be the best option for me at this current stage.
I hope everything at work will eventually work out. I can gain the trust and respect from my bosses with the added responsibilities.
P.S. With great power comes great responsibilities.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Acting Busy
My mentor was on leave today. I ended up reading M5 the whole day. The only highlights of my day is lunch with two seniors, and sneaking to Amoy for dessert with another senior. This was not the first day I had to act busy at my current posting. However, today is the only day I did nothing but read the text in preparation for my examination in March. I am so tired of asking for work to do every day. At the same time, I feel bad that other in my workplace is probably getting "jealous" that I am paid to do nothing. I wish I could help but there's limited things for me to do. I know so little at the moment to be of much assistance to the rest in my department. What can I do?
P.S. I am attaining the highest level of how to appear busy when I am not busy. That's a technique I have mastered so far.
P.S. I am attaining the highest level of how to appear busy when I am not busy. That's a technique I have mastered so far.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
For The Sake Of Beauty
The final cost for my dental will be SGD 5.5K. The dentist has suggested an alternative plan to a surgery of my upper jaw. The latter would have add another SGD 10-20K to the initial quotation of SGD 5K for the braces. This alternative plan will, however, mean a little sacrifice to be made. I shall not reveal what it is. It will be a little secret. Most importantly, I can finish up the whole treatment in a year or so. That would certainly help cut down the long and painful process of having the braces on. For the sake of beauty, I think any girl would be willing to fork out a huge fortune like me.
2009 will be the ultimate year to achieve the dream I had 11 years ago. At the same time, I am also counting down to the most important month of that year - September. That will be exactly two years from the day I start work. I have a bigger plan ahead then. I hope I can achieve that goal too in 2009.
2009 will be the ultimate year to achieve the dream I had 11 years ago. At the same time, I am also counting down to the most important month of that year - September. That will be exactly two years from the day I start work. I have a bigger plan ahead then. I hope I can achieve that goal too in 2009.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Study Time
I have to clear Module 5: Rules and Regulations For Financial Advisory Services within a month. That's the deadline set by my boss. Hence, I am taking my exam on March 12. I'm still less than halfway into the book. At the moment, I am still trying hard to remember whatever I've read. My memory has never been good. I normally have to work twice or thrice as hard as others to memorize things.
Meanwhile, I am planning to go for my braces. Apparently, my layout of my teeth is very problematic. The dentist quoted me $5K for the whole process. I think the cost would increase further given that my wisdom teeth are affecting the growth of my other teeth. I will probably have to go through surgeries to pull them out. Each teeth would probably make myself "quarantine at home" for two weeks. This may sound too good for many people (to have two months of medical leave with 4 wisdom teeth being pulled out). However, the most crucial thing is that I can't afford two months' of break with the current work status of mine. I have to meet up with the dentist and see if we could work out a plan such that I won't delay the plan to put on braces (since normally such process will take at least two years) and not resort to taking too many days off work. I really can't afford at this juncture. I will be doing a switch to another division in March.
Meanwhile, I am planning to go for my braces. Apparently, my layout of my teeth is very problematic. The dentist quoted me $5K for the whole process. I think the cost would increase further given that my wisdom teeth are affecting the growth of my other teeth. I will probably have to go through surgeries to pull them out. Each teeth would probably make myself "quarantine at home" for two weeks. This may sound too good for many people (to have two months of medical leave with 4 wisdom teeth being pulled out). However, the most crucial thing is that I can't afford two months' of break with the current work status of mine. I have to meet up with the dentist and see if we could work out a plan such that I won't delay the plan to put on braces (since normally such process will take at least two years) and not resort to taking too many days off work. I really can't afford at this juncture. I will be doing a switch to another division in March.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Naturally Careless
After a session with my department head, I am handed more assignments to do these days. However, I am still relatively unfamiliar with the documentations. And I am given my first "hanko" rubber stamp with your name engraved on that is used in many Japanese firms). Now I must stamp on every documents I've processed, which represents that I've undertaken responsibilities to check through any details stated in the documents.
Perhaps I'm born naturally careless. Despite numerous checks, I still continue to make mistakes. I think my mentor is not very happy about my current performance. I think she has already formalized a bad impression of me. This is really a bad start! I have to really "watch my back" (literally, that phrase applies to my situation where my whole division is sitting behind me again). This department is one of the worst gossips area. Everyone is watching over you. A very high political risk region.
I met up with my Venezuela teacher that day. She gave me some good pieces of advices about work life. I might have to heed her advices in order to survive in the department. Stay focused at work! I will have to be extra careful with my own work (especially those I need to "hanko"). Then I have to "open one eye, close one eye" to the things around me. People might stabbed you without you knowing, even those whom you treat you as friend. But you can choose not to backstab them at all. Stay clear of such risks! Colleagues are colleagues. Concentrate on giving your best at work and hopefully they will finally change their bad perceptions of you to good ones.
P.S. As of date, one of the graduate trainee colleagues has already decided to tender and grab a better opportunity out there. That means 11 of us from the programme are left currently. I presume more will soon leave too.
Perhaps I'm born naturally careless. Despite numerous checks, I still continue to make mistakes. I think my mentor is not very happy about my current performance. I think she has already formalized a bad impression of me. This is really a bad start! I have to really "watch my back" (literally, that phrase applies to my situation where my whole division is sitting behind me again). This department is one of the worst gossips area. Everyone is watching over you. A very high political risk region.
I met up with my Venezuela teacher that day. She gave me some good pieces of advices about work life. I might have to heed her advices in order to survive in the department. Stay focused at work! I will have to be extra careful with my own work (especially those I need to "hanko"). Then I have to "open one eye, close one eye" to the things around me. People might stabbed you without you knowing, even those whom you treat you as friend. But you can choose not to backstab them at all. Stay clear of such risks! Colleagues are colleagues. Concentrate on giving your best at work and hopefully they will finally change their bad perceptions of you to good ones.
P.S. As of date, one of the graduate trainee colleagues has already decided to tender and grab a better opportunity out there. That means 11 of us from the programme are left currently. I presume more will soon leave too.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Friends Or Foes
I quoted this from a friend's blog...
"When friends lie or disappoint me time and time again,
I get a little tired.
But I still go along with them,
Accept the lie,
Continue listening to their mistakes,
Struggle to be unaffected by the hurting words, actions, decisions,
Just because i want to be there for them."
I admit I am slow in observing things happening around me. I don't jump into my own conclusion till I have enough concrete evidences. However, it hurts to know that someone you treat as friend hasn't been telling you the truth again and again. He/She has to repeatedly tell more lies to cover the first lie he told you.
Friends or foes? Honestly, I rather make one more friend than one more enermy. However, I really have no more courage to accept him/her as a friend whom I can trust anymore.
On a happy note, I finally understand what has been going around me. I also found out who has been real to me these days.
"When friends lie or disappoint me time and time again,
I get a little tired.
But I still go along with them,
Accept the lie,
Continue listening to their mistakes,
Struggle to be unaffected by the hurting words, actions, decisions,
Just because i want to be there for them."
I admit I am slow in observing things happening around me. I don't jump into my own conclusion till I have enough concrete evidences. However, it hurts to know that someone you treat as friend hasn't been telling you the truth again and again. He/She has to repeatedly tell more lies to cover the first lie he told you.
Friends or foes? Honestly, I rather make one more friend than one more enermy. However, I really have no more courage to accept him/her as a friend whom I can trust anymore.
On a happy note, I finally understand what has been going around me. I also found out who has been real to me these days.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Show No Indications
I went to a friend (Mr. Y) 's house for a mini potluck gathering. The rest used to be classmates. I went in the name of a special guest in a way because I know all of them, but I was only in the same class as some of them (not on close terms though). Mr. K was there too. He was probably the closest friend there for me.
A few of us stayed for mahjong session. I was dragged along to play with the promise I will be sent home. (^^,) We played one full round (that means going through all the 4 winds). In the end, Ms. J won $11, and made herself the ultimate winner. This time I managed to win $1. Apparently, this was not as stressful as the last time I played with my colleagues, who are apparently all mahjong experts.
After the mahjong session, as promised, I was sent home by Mr. K. He looked really tired, driving less than 60 km/h on the way back. He tried asking me if I want to go for MacDonald with him so he can grab some coffee to keep him awake for the ride back. Eventually, I gave up ignoring his persistent requests (I turned down a few invitation from him yesterday). I went for my hotcakes at a 24-hour fast food restaurant near my house. I think I only returned home at around 6 a.m. and get some sleep. However, I woke up at 10.30 this morning. I haven't had enough sleep for the last consecutive nights. I must start replenish my sleep soon.
A few of us stayed for mahjong session. I was dragged along to play with the promise I will be sent home. (^^,) We played one full round (that means going through all the 4 winds). In the end, Ms. J won $11, and made herself the ultimate winner. This time I managed to win $1. Apparently, this was not as stressful as the last time I played with my colleagues, who are apparently all mahjong experts.
After the mahjong session, as promised, I was sent home by Mr. K. He looked really tired, driving less than 60 km/h on the way back. He tried asking me if I want to go for MacDonald with him so he can grab some coffee to keep him awake for the ride back. Eventually, I gave up ignoring his persistent requests (I turned down a few invitation from him yesterday). I went for my hotcakes at a 24-hour fast food restaurant near my house. I think I only returned home at around 6 a.m. and get some sleep. However, I woke up at 10.30 this morning. I haven't had enough sleep for the last consecutive nights. I must start replenish my sleep soon.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
First Posting Week
I owned an assignment to my mentor from the last internship. I had no choice but to "moonlight" to complete the work. At the same time, I must learn to be diplomatic this time, so I did not dare to tell anyone from my current department. I secretly finished up the paper and finally finished up the paper on Wednesday.
I had a mentor attached to me for two weeks. Basically, she will teach me the various products and how to process their application whenever she has some time to spare. After the brief lesson, she will give me some new assignment to try out. Most of the time, I can knock off very early. However, I am still trying to get used to that because I hate being the first to go home when my whole department is still around.
Anyway, I was glad I joined my division (there are currently 3 divisions in my department, with the 4th coming up soon) for a dinner event. We went to this Japanese restaurant for dinner. I would say the dinner was an informative session for me. I discovered who are their common targets within the division and within the department. In addition, I also get to know some information on my various Japanese bosses. I won't try scolding them in Mandarin because a few of them can understand and speak the language. After dinner, we went to St James. Most of the locals sneaked home. As the lowest status ranking officer, I went with them and only reached home close to 1 a.m. The next morning I nearly overslept again.
Yesterday I went out with some university friends after work to Geylang for some steamboat. Along the way, we saw many "ugly sight of life". Or put it in a nicer way - "the real side of life in Singapore". We see people peddling drugs, selling smuggled cigarettes, and feel many eyes of the guys on us. We decided to go for KTV session after dinner, but the place was fully booked. We decided to head down to Loof for some drinks.
I had a mentor attached to me for two weeks. Basically, she will teach me the various products and how to process their application whenever she has some time to spare. After the brief lesson, she will give me some new assignment to try out. Most of the time, I can knock off very early. However, I am still trying to get used to that because I hate being the first to go home when my whole department is still around.
Anyway, I was glad I joined my division (there are currently 3 divisions in my department, with the 4th coming up soon) for a dinner event. We went to this Japanese restaurant for dinner. I would say the dinner was an informative session for me. I discovered who are their common targets within the division and within the department. In addition, I also get to know some information on my various Japanese bosses. I won't try scolding them in Mandarin because a few of them can understand and speak the language. After dinner, we went to St James. Most of the locals sneaked home. As the lowest status ranking officer, I went with them and only reached home close to 1 a.m. The next morning I nearly overslept again.
Yesterday I went out with some university friends after work to Geylang for some steamboat. Along the way, we saw many "ugly sight of life". Or put it in a nicer way - "the real side of life in Singapore". We see people peddling drugs, selling smuggled cigarettes, and feel many eyes of the guys on us. We decided to go for KTV session after dinner, but the place was fully booked. We decided to head down to Loof for some drinks.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Before & After Designated Leave
I went Bangkok over the designated leave between 23 and 26 January. I finally met up with my Argentinian friend. Although I didn't get the chance to meet up with my Thai friends, I had a great time shopping and eating in Bangkok (if you disregards the horrendous experiences with AirAsia flights). The break has certainly given me a chance to really relax myself. I am eventually on the road to recovery.
I am back at work today, and started my first posting. My current seat is "strategically" right across from the GM. I think he probably noticed I was restless after lunch (with the post-lunch effect and no 'coffee of the day'). Besides the first posting, this morning we had a grand ceremony of "graduation" (from the graduate trainee program). The GM was also there to present a speech and certificates to us. In fact, today seems to be a "fateful day". I even bumped into the GM in the lift this morning. Our meeting was a little awkward. I only noticed him in the corner of the lift when I went in. There was no chance for me to exit the lift. I greeted him "morning" with an awkward tone. Then, when the lift reached the right floor, though I was standing in front of the door, I had to politely let him out of the lift first. And now I will be facing him for at least two weeks till there is available seat for me at my division.
I am back at work today, and started my first posting. My current seat is "strategically" right across from the GM. I think he probably noticed I was restless after lunch (with the post-lunch effect and no 'coffee of the day'). Besides the first posting, this morning we had a grand ceremony of "graduation" (from the graduate trainee program). The GM was also there to present a speech and certificates to us. In fact, today seems to be a "fateful day". I even bumped into the GM in the lift this morning. Our meeting was a little awkward. I only noticed him in the corner of the lift when I went in. There was no chance for me to exit the lift. I greeted him "morning" with an awkward tone. Then, when the lift reached the right floor, though I was standing in front of the door, I had to politely let him out of the lift first. And now I will be facing him for at least two weeks till there is available seat for me at my division.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Secrets
Everyone chose to keep his/her own secrets. I respect such decision. Yet, at the same time, I felt the distance I had with him. I'm not sure if he has told me more than the other ten. Many people would think I am the best person to console him when he feels down, even Mr. L seems to have faith in me. I don't even know if I have such faith in myself.
He has let me into a little of something that happened to him. However, he certainly didn't want to elaborate the story behind what changed him. I had a feeling that was what led to our previous conversation about "colleagues are colleagues" that happened few months ago. That feeling kept me thinking. As an inquisitive girl, I have a lot of questions for him but I knew he would only choose to answer me when he feels like it.
In addition, he might seem to have recover from the whole episode of the selection process. Likewise, I don't know what exactly happens. However, quoting his words, "in the corporate world, it's not what you know and do, it's others' perception of what you know and do, plus the people you know", I knew one word could sum up this whole story - "politics". This is how ugly politics can get.
Although at the end of the day I might take another few months to realise what has gone wrong (just like how I finally seemed to understand why the sudden phrase of "colleagues are colleagues"), I know I still treat him as a friend and sincerely hope he will eventually find joy in life.
P.S. I might not have any idea whether he treats me as friend. A friend whom he can trust with his secrets.
He has let me into a little of something that happened to him. However, he certainly didn't want to elaborate the story behind what changed him. I had a feeling that was what led to our previous conversation about "colleagues are colleagues" that happened few months ago. That feeling kept me thinking. As an inquisitive girl, I have a lot of questions for him but I knew he would only choose to answer me when he feels like it.
In addition, he might seem to have recover from the whole episode of the selection process. Likewise, I don't know what exactly happens. However, quoting his words, "in the corporate world, it's not what you know and do, it's others' perception of what you know and do, plus the people you know", I knew one word could sum up this whole story - "politics". This is how ugly politics can get.
Although at the end of the day I might take another few months to realise what has gone wrong (just like how I finally seemed to understand why the sudden phrase of "colleagues are colleagues"), I know I still treat him as a friend and sincerely hope he will eventually find joy in life.
P.S. I might not have any idea whether he treats me as friend. A friend whom he can trust with his secrets.
Numerous Consultation
My cough has not improved over the week. I went for the second consultation with the doctor on Sunday.
In the end, my right eye started giving me problem these days. It became quite red yesterday, and began giving me blur vision yesterday. I had to survive without any contact lens and spectacles this morning to provide my eyes some rest. Luckily, my degree was not too high. I managed to get to office safely. However, I decided to play safe and went for my third consultation (in the last one week plus). The doctor gave me some medications and strongly advised me to stop using make-up and contact lens for at least the next one week. I had no choice but to heed his advice for my Bangkok trip, so I will be spotted with my spectacles for the whole trip. I will try to take off my spectacles for photos though (I'm still keen to look pretty in my photos). In addition, I will have to bring along my cough syrup, as well as my medications for the eye.
I hope I will still enjoy my Bangkok trip before I return for my new work, which will commence on Monday.
P.S. I will be in Bangkok from 23-25 Jan.
In the end, my right eye started giving me problem these days. It became quite red yesterday, and began giving me blur vision yesterday. I had to survive without any contact lens and spectacles this morning to provide my eyes some rest. Luckily, my degree was not too high. I managed to get to office safely. However, I decided to play safe and went for my third consultation (in the last one week plus). The doctor gave me some medications and strongly advised me to stop using make-up and contact lens for at least the next one week. I had no choice but to heed his advice for my Bangkok trip, so I will be spotted with my spectacles for the whole trip. I will try to take off my spectacles for photos though (I'm still keen to look pretty in my photos). In addition, I will have to bring along my cough syrup, as well as my medications for the eye.
I hope I will still enjoy my Bangkok trip before I return for my new work, which will commence on Monday.
P.S. I will be in Bangkok from 23-25 Jan.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Trade
Synopsis:
TRADE provides a compassionate look at an ugly world. In Mexico City, men kidnap13-year-old Adriana (Paulina Gaitan) with the intent of selling her virginity to the highest bidder.
Young Polish beauty Veronica (Alicja Bachleda) is held captive by the same men, and they threaten her young son across the ocean. As the criminals mistreat their victims, Veronica is Adrianas only solace as she is taken farther and farther away from home. Meanwhile, Adrianas older brother, Jorge (Cesar Ramos), begins to track his sister across the Mexican border into Texas and through the United States. On his mission, he runs into a Texas cop named Ray (Kevin Kline) who agrees to help him without ever really saying why.
Opinions:
The movie was a reflection of reality, discussing issues like human trafficking, drugs, corruption and street crimes etc. which are still common problems in Latin America, or rather around the world.
Human trafficking, a global issue that happens in every continent, from Asia to Latin America. The sad truth is that such things happened every day in our world, where many girls and boys are being kidnapped, and forced into being sex slaves.
In the movie, a boy was drugged, and sold to a pedophile. Another pretty young lady (Veronica) was cheated into the sex trade, when she ventured to Mexico in the hope of sending his son to U.S. When she realised her son was snatched away from home by the syndicate, and she chose to end her life in front of Manuel, one of the kidnappers. That was probably how true how life of these victimes eventually ended up in reality too.
Although Jorge eventually managed to save his sister from the clutch of those kidnappers, the show ended off with the child of kidnappers calling out "Dad!" after seeing his dad lying dead on the ground (he was stabbed by Jorge). That left me with such great impact. I am impressed with the director and scriptwriter of the movie by that last scene, which depicts how in real life, people involved in these crimes might also have their families, but for survival or for money, they might just choose such "occupation". This was similar to what Jorge did at the beginning of the movie - cheating tourists at the plaza and then robbing them at some deserted alley. There are probably many people out there on the streets of developing countries like those in Latin America, who chose to commit crimes for the sake of money.
A sad movie that has very profound meaning. Yet, the movie is simple to understand, with an interesting plot. The director has purposely left out not explaining explicitly if Ray eventually finds his daughter, and has chosen to leave it as a mystery till the end. However, the expression in Ray seemed to hint that the kidnapper could likely be his daughter, which indicates a deeper meaning to it...
Friday, January 18, 2008
Friends
I am certainly feeling much better now. Or rather I finally regained my calmness. Perhaps I was recovering slightly from my cough and running nose too.
In fact, I didn't quite finish my story that day. I was grateful that I had friends around me when I needed them most that day. They accompanied me at different point in time of the day to console me. Although their methods of consolation vary, I really appreciate the little effort and time they put in for me.
Ms. S sat down with me, and listened to me as I started crying again. She was probably the second person that day to see me breaking down. Occasionally, she would give me a pat on the back to give me encouragement. I am sure if I have allowed her, she would have given me a hug too. I guess a hug can mean a lot to a friend, and nothing can be more realistic than such interaction between friends.
That day I didn't want to venture out for lunch with the rest, as I was still recovering from my illness. I briefly told Mr. T what happened in the morning. I guess he was concern so he came to check on me during lunch after finding out that I was eating in. We ate at L9 together. As I repeat the story to him over my lunch, my tears uncontrollably welled up in my eyes, and they began to stream down my face. He was totally stunned that I actually started crying. I quickly wiped off my tears. Luckily, I did it fast enough before Ms. C came along, and then the rest also discovered that I was at L9 too. I really didn't want to let too many people know that I broke down in front of Ms. K, the HR personnel that morning, but I believed Mr. T has somehow let Ms. C know about it, and that's why she came to look for me at L9.
I think I worked till 7pm that day, then Mr. L who kept me occupy with the to and fro emails asked me to go dinner together. We left for dinner at Amoy. He did not probe into the matter until he made sure we have our food in front of us, and after I started eating. Ultimately, I was quite prepared to tell him the storey, as he has always been giving me advices like a big brother. As usual, he gave me his words of encouragement too.
I must say it's quite an "achievement" by itself to tear in front of three different people at different point in time of a single day. That is so unlike the recent me, who appears so assertive and to possess very strong characters. Quoting the words of one of them, "everyone has their weakest points life." At the end of the day, I had no idea why I was so overwhelmed by the emotions. I was still feeling the tears coming into my eyes when I reached home. However, I am still grateful for three friends who have accompanied me when I needed them.
Now how I wish I could do the same thing for them (or rather all my friends) too...like Mr. T.
I know he is devastated with everything from the company to the first posting that he might choose to leave the company. As a guy, he certainly won't tear in front of others. However, crying is considered an avenue to let out all feelings. It's better than bottoming up till your body cannot cope. Though what I did may seem a little dumb too.
At this present moment, I have no idea how to encourage him. I could only offer him a listening ear, but ultimately there's very little I can do. He probably will choose to keep everything to himself. That's his character. Yet, everyone could tell that he has been rather moody these days. As a friend, I really like to do something to give him some encouragement, and hope he will stay on at least for half a year before moving on. I learnt my lesson the hard way. I guess having worked at least a year in a company before transiting to another environment would be better, or risk having to explain to the prospective employer(s).
How I wish I could do something for him now...
In fact, I didn't quite finish my story that day. I was grateful that I had friends around me when I needed them most that day. They accompanied me at different point in time of the day to console me. Although their methods of consolation vary, I really appreciate the little effort and time they put in for me.
Ms. S sat down with me, and listened to me as I started crying again. She was probably the second person that day to see me breaking down. Occasionally, she would give me a pat on the back to give me encouragement. I am sure if I have allowed her, she would have given me a hug too. I guess a hug can mean a lot to a friend, and nothing can be more realistic than such interaction between friends.
That day I didn't want to venture out for lunch with the rest, as I was still recovering from my illness. I briefly told Mr. T what happened in the morning. I guess he was concern so he came to check on me during lunch after finding out that I was eating in. We ate at L9 together. As I repeat the story to him over my lunch, my tears uncontrollably welled up in my eyes, and they began to stream down my face. He was totally stunned that I actually started crying. I quickly wiped off my tears. Luckily, I did it fast enough before Ms. C came along, and then the rest also discovered that I was at L9 too. I really didn't want to let too many people know that I broke down in front of Ms. K, the HR personnel that morning, but I believed Mr. T has somehow let Ms. C know about it, and that's why she came to look for me at L9.
I think I worked till 7pm that day, then Mr. L who kept me occupy with the to and fro emails asked me to go dinner together. We left for dinner at Amoy. He did not probe into the matter until he made sure we have our food in front of us, and after I started eating. Ultimately, I was quite prepared to tell him the storey, as he has always been giving me advices like a big brother. As usual, he gave me his words of encouragement too.
I must say it's quite an "achievement" by itself to tear in front of three different people at different point in time of a single day. That is so unlike the recent me, who appears so assertive and to possess very strong characters. Quoting the words of one of them, "everyone has their weakest points life." At the end of the day, I had no idea why I was so overwhelmed by the emotions. I was still feeling the tears coming into my eyes when I reached home. However, I am still grateful for three friends who have accompanied me when I needed them.
Now how I wish I could do the same thing for them (or rather all my friends) too...like Mr. T.
I know he is devastated with everything from the company to the first posting that he might choose to leave the company. As a guy, he certainly won't tear in front of others. However, crying is considered an avenue to let out all feelings. It's better than bottoming up till your body cannot cope. Though what I did may seem a little dumb too.
At this present moment, I have no idea how to encourage him. I could only offer him a listening ear, but ultimately there's very little I can do. He probably will choose to keep everything to himself. That's his character. Yet, everyone could tell that he has been rather moody these days. As a friend, I really like to do something to give him some encouragement, and hope he will stay on at least for half a year before moving on. I learnt my lesson the hard way. I guess having worked at least a year in a company before transiting to another environment would be better, or risk having to explain to the prospective employer(s).
How I wish I could do something for him now...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Totally Not Myself Today...
I was totally not myself today...
I was already sweating profusely since early morning. I felt that my whole body temperature dropping. I was not sure if it was all due to the illness, which I have yet to recovered from.
I met my senior buddy at the ladies. She heard about my choices, and told me that I should talk to the senior in my department, who is in the division that I put as first choice. I could sense that she was warning me about something. In fact, she has told me that the department head at that division is very strict with timing.
Then I received a call from Ms. K, the HR personnel. She told me that the department head of my first choice (for my first posting) wants to see me. I decided to reconfirm what my senior buddy has told me earlier. I approached the senior and affirmed that he was really leaving. Previously, I have already heard from someone else he's leaving the company but I was not sure since I have never heard from him. He also told me that the department head is indeed a tough character to handle. I would be stuck in that division, and she does not easily allow for leave to be taken. His words came short and straight to the point. He told me enough to tell me that if I put that as my first choice, I would never attain what I want eventually - to get back to the current division I am in, where my interest truly lies. Although my current division and the division I chose as first choice belong to the same department, the heads who are in-charge are totally different characters. I got all the information I want in just 15 minutes.
I had to make my decision in 5 min. The deadline was 9am. I decided to shift up my choices to place my stakes on one department, which is my second choice. It might seem a dumb choice.
I went up to Ms. K after submitting my choices. I had a one-to-one talk with her. I told her my rationale and my worst case scenario was to get into the compliance team. She tried to probe for my second worst case scenario. I told her blatantly my true feelings was I felt that there was no other department I rather go into. As I talked to her, I started breaking down and began to tear. It was just too short a time to make the decision after getting the information in one morning, or rather in less than half an hour (given the chaotic email checking the moment I reached office after a day of sick leave).
I was already sweating profusely since early morning. I felt that my whole body temperature dropping. I was not sure if it was all due to the illness, which I have yet to recovered from.
I met my senior buddy at the ladies. She heard about my choices, and told me that I should talk to the senior in my department, who is in the division that I put as first choice. I could sense that she was warning me about something. In fact, she has told me that the department head at that division is very strict with timing.
Then I received a call from Ms. K, the HR personnel. She told me that the department head of my first choice (for my first posting) wants to see me. I decided to reconfirm what my senior buddy has told me earlier. I approached the senior and affirmed that he was really leaving. Previously, I have already heard from someone else he's leaving the company but I was not sure since I have never heard from him. He also told me that the department head is indeed a tough character to handle. I would be stuck in that division, and she does not easily allow for leave to be taken. His words came short and straight to the point. He told me enough to tell me that if I put that as my first choice, I would never attain what I want eventually - to get back to the current division I am in, where my interest truly lies. Although my current division and the division I chose as first choice belong to the same department, the heads who are in-charge are totally different characters. I got all the information I want in just 15 minutes.
I had to make my decision in 5 min. The deadline was 9am. I decided to shift up my choices to place my stakes on one department, which is my second choice. It might seem a dumb choice.
I went up to Ms. K after submitting my choices. I had a one-to-one talk with her. I told her my rationale and my worst case scenario was to get into the compliance team. She tried to probe for my second worst case scenario. I told her blatantly my true feelings was I felt that there was no other department I rather go into. As I talked to her, I started breaking down and began to tear. It was just too short a time to make the decision after getting the information in one morning, or rather in less than half an hour (given the chaotic email checking the moment I reached office after a day of sick leave).
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Old & New Friends
I like the feeling of meeting up friends, whom you haven't met up for ages. And it's always nice to make new friends, who are fun loving.
Yesterday I met up some university friends and got to know their friends at Minds Cafe. Then we went to a club near Jumbo Seafood at Boat Quay area. The club has quite a young crowd, and you will see a lot of couples who were busy making out rather than enjoying the music and the dance. I must admit I am not really a clubber. I actually prefer to chill out with friends. Hence, I enjoyed sitting on the sofa, sipping my vodka-lime while most of my friends were on the dance floor. I also managed to have a long one-to-one session with one of my friends, who is also one of my best travelmates. However, I am now suffering from a bad throat after talking at the top of my music against the music. After clubbing, we went to a Bak Kut Teh place at Circular Road. Initially we wanted to go to the famous one across from Central, but we realised it was closed. Hence, we headed for the one at Circular Road. The soup was filled with pepper. I guess I didn't quite like it. I must really try the famous one the next time I go there.
The plan for today is to laze around the pool with a good friend at One George Street. Forget about guys. Forget about work. Let's enjoy life on the first day of the weekend!!!
I should be meeting more friends at night too! That will be an absolutely awesome way to end off Saturday!
Yesterday I met up some university friends and got to know their friends at Minds Cafe. Then we went to a club near Jumbo Seafood at Boat Quay area. The club has quite a young crowd, and you will see a lot of couples who were busy making out rather than enjoying the music and the dance. I must admit I am not really a clubber. I actually prefer to chill out with friends. Hence, I enjoyed sitting on the sofa, sipping my vodka-lime while most of my friends were on the dance floor. I also managed to have a long one-to-one session with one of my friends, who is also one of my best travelmates. However, I am now suffering from a bad throat after talking at the top of my music against the music. After clubbing, we went to a Bak Kut Teh place at Circular Road. Initially we wanted to go to the famous one across from Central, but we realised it was closed. Hence, we headed for the one at Circular Road. The soup was filled with pepper. I guess I didn't quite like it. I must really try the famous one the next time I go there.
The plan for today is to laze around the pool with a good friend at One George Street. Forget about guys. Forget about work. Let's enjoy life on the first day of the weekend!!!
I should be meeting more friends at night too! That will be an absolutely awesome way to end off Saturday!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Three Guy Friends
I just feel like blogging about the three guy friends, namely Mr. K, Mr. L and Mr. T (these initials are different from the rest of my entries) that have appeared or re-appeared in my life these days.
1) Mr. K
We used to be very close friends. We haven't been in contact for quite some time, till recently we started chatting on msn. We met up over a movie once. Then we tried to meet up over quite a number of movies. However, eventually the plans fell through due to various "unforeseen circumstances".
There was one day I felt really upset over some news at work. I happened to see him online and started chatting with him. Not only did he act as my listening ear, but he also told me that I could call him anytime if I needed to talk to someone. That was so sweet of him.
Realising that I was looking for a weekend plan that day, he even asked if I want to join him and his friends for Mahjong and basketball sessions. In the end, I arranged for other plan, but in the evening he came over to my area and asked me out for dinner/supper. We chatted over the food. I really feel like I was back in school whenever I am around him. Life seems so much more simple.
However, we just like to remain as friends for now no matter whether he still has a litte liking for me (as he used to like me). I chose to give myself some time. Yet the feelings towards him have always been very complex. I have no idea how I should express, but many things have happened and the many people that have come into our lives during these years that we did not really contact each other.
2) Mr. L
I've been chatting with him via emails more often than with the rest of my trainee friends. Although most of the time we spent time talking crap, we kept each other "entertained" with the emails that go to and fro, which kept me awake during my self-reading and browsing through pages of google hits (while waiting for the slow PCs and internet to download the various pdf documents).
Occasionally, we will even "sneak out" together at 5pm for dinner at Amoy. The day before his birthday the two of us even went for lunch at Maxwell without notifying the rest. I think he does not seem to make a huge affair out of his birthday. As a friend, I respect his wishes and only treat him to a simple lunch. The lunch only cost $5, but I hope he can appreciate my sincerity.
He really makes a good friend, giving me advices whenever I feel down. The rest of the trainee friends probably have no idea that we've got so close as friends lately. I think we also prefer to keep our friendship "an underground affair" so as not to invite too much unnecessary gossips at workplace.
3) Mr. T
He seemed to have isolated himself from the rest of us, including me previously. Recently, he began to make more frequent visits to my department, where one of my other trainee friends and I are attached to for the internship. He will come by to talk to us.
A few days' ago, we went out lunch together. He was the only one from the trainee program who did not join us. After lunch, I was cheekily trying to ask him where did he go for his lunch date. He readily admitted he went on a "date". I was quite shocked initially, but I decided to play along and finally found out who he went lunch with.
The next day he finally joined us for lunch. When he found out that I had a blog, he wanted to know the url, which I wouldn't give him this current one that has too much information on my workplace. He actually said something like he treated me as friend, and told me a "secret" and I should in return be willing to share my "secret" - my blog's url. I was shocked and happy upon hearing that because he was the one who told me that "colleagues are colleagues" and ruled out that I was a friend of him few months ago. I was still thinking previously if he ever treated me as a friend. Now the mystery is finally solved.
I am glad he is treating me as a friend the way I treated him as one. I really hope this friendship will last. Although I must admit I don't know this friend well enough (he kept too many things to himself), I know there is a part of me that is willing to sacrifice for this friend because he is worth keeping as a friend.
1) Mr. K
We used to be very close friends. We haven't been in contact for quite some time, till recently we started chatting on msn. We met up over a movie once. Then we tried to meet up over quite a number of movies. However, eventually the plans fell through due to various "unforeseen circumstances".
There was one day I felt really upset over some news at work. I happened to see him online and started chatting with him. Not only did he act as my listening ear, but he also told me that I could call him anytime if I needed to talk to someone. That was so sweet of him.
Realising that I was looking for a weekend plan that day, he even asked if I want to join him and his friends for Mahjong and basketball sessions. In the end, I arranged for other plan, but in the evening he came over to my area and asked me out for dinner/supper. We chatted over the food. I really feel like I was back in school whenever I am around him. Life seems so much more simple.
However, we just like to remain as friends for now no matter whether he still has a litte liking for me (as he used to like me). I chose to give myself some time. Yet the feelings towards him have always been very complex. I have no idea how I should express, but many things have happened and the many people that have come into our lives during these years that we did not really contact each other.
2) Mr. L
I've been chatting with him via emails more often than with the rest of my trainee friends. Although most of the time we spent time talking crap, we kept each other "entertained" with the emails that go to and fro, which kept me awake during my self-reading and browsing through pages of google hits (while waiting for the slow PCs and internet to download the various pdf documents).
Occasionally, we will even "sneak out" together at 5pm for dinner at Amoy. The day before his birthday the two of us even went for lunch at Maxwell without notifying the rest. I think he does not seem to make a huge affair out of his birthday. As a friend, I respect his wishes and only treat him to a simple lunch. The lunch only cost $5, but I hope he can appreciate my sincerity.
He really makes a good friend, giving me advices whenever I feel down. The rest of the trainee friends probably have no idea that we've got so close as friends lately. I think we also prefer to keep our friendship "an underground affair" so as not to invite too much unnecessary gossips at workplace.
3) Mr. T
He seemed to have isolated himself from the rest of us, including me previously. Recently, he began to make more frequent visits to my department, where one of my other trainee friends and I are attached to for the internship. He will come by to talk to us.
A few days' ago, we went out lunch together. He was the only one from the trainee program who did not join us. After lunch, I was cheekily trying to ask him where did he go for his lunch date. He readily admitted he went on a "date". I was quite shocked initially, but I decided to play along and finally found out who he went lunch with.
The next day he finally joined us for lunch. When he found out that I had a blog, he wanted to know the url, which I wouldn't give him this current one that has too much information on my workplace. He actually said something like he treated me as friend, and told me a "secret" and I should in return be willing to share my "secret" - my blog's url. I was shocked and happy upon hearing that because he was the one who told me that "colleagues are colleagues" and ruled out that I was a friend of him few months ago. I was still thinking previously if he ever treated me as a friend. Now the mystery is finally solved.
I am glad he is treating me as a friend the way I treated him as one. I really hope this friendship will last. Although I must admit I don't know this friend well enough (he kept too many things to himself), I know there is a part of me that is willing to sacrifice for this friend because he is worth keeping as a friend.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Priorities in Life
I managed to get some life beyond work these days. I've been going out with friends lately. At the same time, I feel that life is getting more complex too. Perhaps as you grow older, your intuition works better or rather you become more sensitive to things around you. However, I really don't want to give any false hopes to anyone. At this moment, work is my foremost priority in life. In addition, I've been through too much guessing work last year. I guess now I just want to sit back and enjoy life first. There are just too much complexity to consider in a relationship. Of course, I don't want fate to slip again after so many years. However, I also don't want to jump into something I am not ready for.
Last Internship
It's like the 4th week into my last internship. I still have no idea much about my division. Once again my boss(es) sit behind me. Or rather my boss sits at the furthest end from me, while my big boss sits directly behind me. I am in fact closer to the other divisions within my department.
After weeks of self-reading, I am finally given some assignments to do. These assignments kept me slightly more motivated at work. Reading is essential to gain knowledge on the concepts and terminologies of the department, but it can get a little dry without doing some value-adding tasks. Most people would probably dread the idea of staying back late in office. On the contrary, I am glad that I have work to do. I don't mind staying on to finish up the research given to me. However, I can't stay beyond 8 pm. My boss tries chasing me back home yesterday, which signals that I probably won't get any dinner allowance even if I stayed on. Hence, it would be better for me to leave before that. I will still try to finish up the assignments given to me by the deadline, and hopefully I have done a good job on them too. Well, I just hope everything turns out well at work...
After weeks of self-reading, I am finally given some assignments to do. These assignments kept me slightly more motivated at work. Reading is essential to gain knowledge on the concepts and terminologies of the department, but it can get a little dry without doing some value-adding tasks. Most people would probably dread the idea of staying back late in office. On the contrary, I am glad that I have work to do. I don't mind staying on to finish up the research given to me. However, I can't stay beyond 8 pm. My boss tries chasing me back home yesterday, which signals that I probably won't get any dinner allowance even if I stayed on. Hence, it would be better for me to leave before that. I will still try to finish up the assignments given to me by the deadline, and hopefully I have done a good job on them too. Well, I just hope everything turns out well at work...
Friday, January 4, 2008
No Smoke Without Fire
I heard rumors that there won't be enough vacancies for the graduate trainees. Most departments are not opening up during this period, probably due to head count issues (i.e. budget). The worst thing is I also heard that my current division is also not recruiting at the moment. When you finally thought you found your direction in life, you realised you can't fulfil that dream and achieve your goal. I was totally upset after hearing the 'rumors'. At this point in time, we have no evidence to verify the source of the news. However, there's no smoke without fire. I just hope that when my big boss returns from his holiday, he will bring back some good news for me.
I came home after work still feeling the impact of the news. Luckily, two good friends cheered me up a little. One of them was sweet enough to tell me I could always give him a ring if I need a listening ear...
I came home after work still feeling the impact of the news. Luckily, two good friends cheered me up a little. One of them was sweet enough to tell me I could always give him a ring if I need a listening ear...
The Angel & Devil
I came across this at a friend's blog. I thought it is quite interesting, and decided to share with those who read my blog too.
每个男孩都曾是地狱的恶魔，当遇到自己喜欢的女孩时，便会动心，于是变为凡人。 所以女孩一定不要辜负男孩，不然男孩又要回到地狱。每个女孩都曾是无泪的天使，当遇到自己喜欢的男孩时，便会流泪，于是变成凡人。所以男孩一定不要辜负女孩，因为女孩为你放弃了整个天堂!
每个男孩都曾是地狱的恶魔，当遇到自己喜欢的女孩时，便会动心，于是变为凡人。 所以女孩一定不要辜负男孩，不然男孩又要回到地狱。每个女孩都曾是无泪的天使，当遇到自己喜欢的男孩时，便会流泪，于是变成凡人。所以男孩一定不要辜负女孩，因为女孩为你放弃了整个天堂!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
D-Day Is Coming
D-Day = Decision Day or is it Doom Day?!
The HR personnel has sent out the email to all graduate trainees, informing us that she's waiting for the final confirmation of vacancies from the JGM / department heads. Meanwhile, she wants us to reply her with our decisions (stating our top three choices for the final posting).
I will probably put Project Finance - Advisory & Finance as my first choice. That's where I am now. Although I still have no idea how real work is going to be like in the department, I think that's the closest to where I like to venture into in the future (to where I belong). Those friends who know me well enough will know "where" I am talking about - the other side of the world. I finally made up my mind, especially after talking to the guy on exchange (from JBIC). I heard from my other colleague that he will be posted to Latin America soon. No wonder he told me that perhaps there will be a chance we might meet in Latin America. How I wish my Spanish could match his (he took 6 months of the language in Salamanca)! Hopefully, I will get my opportunity soon. At least I found my direction.
Of course, not everyone has such a clear idea of where they want to be in. I was talking to a colleague, whom I know hasn't been quite happy with the job positions he has been given so far. He probably still does not know what he really wants in life. I feel sad for him. At the same time, I hope he will find himself a direction soon. I also hope the rest of the trainees could get their choices this time.
I think all the reflections done last year had done me good. My thoughts are much clearer these days. I have my plans laid out for 2008. I become more optimistic, hoping that I will achieve the goals I had set for this year.
The HR personnel has sent out the email to all graduate trainees, informing us that she's waiting for the final confirmation of vacancies from the JGM / department heads. Meanwhile, she wants us to reply her with our decisions (stating our top three choices for the final posting).
I will probably put Project Finance - Advisory & Finance as my first choice. That's where I am now. Although I still have no idea how real work is going to be like in the department, I think that's the closest to where I like to venture into in the future (to where I belong). Those friends who know me well enough will know "where" I am talking about - the other side of the world. I finally made up my mind, especially after talking to the guy on exchange (from JBIC). I heard from my other colleague that he will be posted to Latin America soon. No wonder he told me that perhaps there will be a chance we might meet in Latin America. How I wish my Spanish could match his (he took 6 months of the language in Salamanca)! Hopefully, I will get my opportunity soon. At least I found my direction.
Of course, not everyone has such a clear idea of where they want to be in. I was talking to a colleague, whom I know hasn't been quite happy with the job positions he has been given so far. He probably still does not know what he really wants in life. I feel sad for him. At the same time, I hope he will find himself a direction soon. I also hope the rest of the trainees could get their choices this time.
I think all the reflections done last year had done me good. My thoughts are much clearer these days. I have my plans laid out for 2008. I become more optimistic, hoping that I will achieve the goals I had set for this year.
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