Secrets

Everyone chose to keep his/her own secrets. I respect such decision. Yet, at the same time, I felt the distance I had with him. I'm not sure if he has told me more than the other ten. Many people would think I am the best person to console him when he feels down, even Mr. L seems to have faith in me. I don't even know if I have such faith in myself.

He has let me into a little of something that happened to him. However, he certainly didn't want to elaborate the story behind what changed him. I had a feeling that was what led to our previous conversation about "colleagues are colleagues" that happened few months ago. That feeling kept me thinking. As an inquisitive girl, I have a lot of questions for him but I knew he would only choose to answer me when he feels like it.

In addition, he might seem to have recover from the whole episode of the selection process. Likewise, I don't know what exactly happens. However, quoting his words, "in the corporate world, it's not what you know and do, it's others' perception of what you know and do, plus the people you know", I knew one word could sum up this whole story - "politics". This is how ugly politics can get.

Although at the end of the day I might take another few months to realise what has gone wrong (just like how I finally seemed to understand why the sudden phrase of "colleagues are colleagues"), I know I still treat him as a friend and sincerely hope he will eventually find joy in life.

P.S. I might not have any idea whether he treats me as friend. A friend whom he can trust with his secrets.